Sometimes I just don’t want to be human
Sometimes I wonder how I can be part of the human race, how I can be part of a species that treats other members so cruelly and with such disregard for their feelings. I don’t usually write anything about how I personally feel on this blog but sometimes it gets overwhelming and I feel I’m too much of a burden on my friends to constantly vent to them so today I’ve decided to vent a little on here.
I’ve been a bit depressed lately and I’ve fallen behind on my blogging and many other things in my real life because of it. I find that I just want to curl up in a ball in my bed and cry and beat myself up over how I can let people in and love and get a slap in the face for it every time. I feel like I should be harder, I should just close myself up and never let another living soul into my heart so I don’t keep getting hurt. Then I remind myself that in this particular situation I don’t even know if this person is hurting me on purpose, they’re just gone, so I don’t know what’s going on, it doesn’t mean that they don’t care about me and that it might not have anything to do with me at all. Then the thoughts go round and round in circles and I go through it all again. For the past two weeks it’s been like that. Depression and Anxiety suck on their own. Having both is hell.
That’s why sometimes I don’t want to be human, so I turn to second life and I create an avatar that is as far from human as possible as I’ve done today.Aii has come out with this awesome Centipede body. It comes with an AO, the tattoo in 9 colours that are in TMP appliers and Omega appliers. The horns and upper body legs are includes and it comes with a texture change hud with 11 textures for the shell, 11 textures for the belly, 12 textures for the legs and 7 textures for the pinchers. There’s also UV maps included so you can make your own custom textures for it! The AO that it comes with works with other AO’s so your upper half can be posed however you want while the body will work with the AO that’s included. I think it’s brilliant creativity and was perfect for my non human mood!
Pose Lover started on the 1st of January and there’s a bunch of poses up for grabs! Today I’m featuring the Romanum rock from [RoLu Poses] as I thought this avatar looked great with it! the rock comes with all accessories for each pose. There’s 6 single poses and 6 couple poses included and it’s great for role playing fight scenes! For links to the RoLu store as well as Pose Lover please see below each picture.The top(nipple covers? Necklace?) I’m wearing today is the Nubian Charm by Yasum that was at the previous round of We ❤ Rp. I love the details on this top (for lack of a better word)! It comes with 3 different options and earrings which aren’t pictured today and has a hud with 3 texture options for the main chains, 4 texture options for the middle chains, 9 texture options for the charm and 5 texture options for the feather top/nipple covers. I thought it was perfect for this outfit!
The skin I’m wearing today is the Jasmine skin in the Butter tone by Hush. I’m wearing the omega head applier with the LOGO Chloe mesh head and .:Soul:.‘s Luin Uni Ears. For my hair I’m wearing the Joleen hair by .:EMO-tions:.
I hope you guys are having a good start to the new year and thanks for putting up with my little vent!